Your fears have made you self-deprecate for too long. But you need to start a self-love journey this September and focus on your strengths instead of weaknesses. No one is perfect, so don't be so hard on yourself.
After trying your hardest every day, you can't act like a bad person. Give yourself more credit. You should treat yourself kinder. You show grace to others; now show grace to yourself. If you can forgive them, you can forgive yourself.
Too much time has been spent criticizing yourself. Having high expectations is acceptable, but failing to reach them shouldn't be punished. Because you were preoccupied with other things, you didn't love and care for yourself.
But now, treat yourself with greater care and respect. Stop punishing yourself for previous mistakes and prioritizing work and relationships over mental health. You must work for happiness. This should be a daily occurrence, not a special treat.
You always tell self-deprecating jokes to laugh at yourself first. You pretend like nothing bothers you and are confident, but you're not.
You need to work on your confidence and self-love, not just pretend. Instead than seeking love from others, prioritize self-love. After all, knowing you deserve love will make it simpler to accept it from others.
You love your family, friends, and lovers always. You wouldn't want them to go a day without being pampered and loved because they deserve it. The person in the mirror rarely requires that much effort. And this must change.
If you can take time for family, you can take time for yourself. Mental health matters. Your comfort matters. You can't keep putting others before yourself, so start loving yourself, even little by little. You should occasionally prioritize your needs.